hmmm

ntah nape kebelakangan ni byk pikir plak... makin byk pikir makin byk soalan yg xde jwpannye. letih da dgn life ni... da xtaw nak wat pe lg...

kdg2, tgk kwn2 kt claz bising2 ckp cuti xckup wat aku fikir, "kalo kau nk cuti sgt, berhenti la study ni. kalo nk cuti byk, jgn amek course ni." ye la kan... sebelum amek course ni, fikir la dlu, kite study ni nk tolong org, bukan semata2 duit aje. mmg la gaji byk, tp kalo gaji byk tp xde rasa kesian n prihatin kat patients, xpayah keje la.. amek bisnes ke, tu mmg kaya.. ade company sendiri, ko nak cuti setahun pun cuti la.

even mase keje kat hospital, kite xleh nk cuti sesuka ati je.. unless mmg perangai mcm tu kan, then baik cuti je aa, brambus lg baik.. kalo diri sendiri tu rase nak cuti sebulan, xyah amek course ni. xyah nak ckp kolej x adil sbb x bg cuti byk. ko nak cuti byk sgt ko pegi kat negara lain. atau kat universiti lain. bukan kat sini. xpon ko duduk je la kat umah tu.. confirm bleh cuti lama..

byg kan la, kalo mak bapak ko sakit tenat, or any family members ko sakit kuat nak masuk hospial, tp doktor xde, pharmacist pun xde sbb cuti.. i patient dh nak mati ni.. mcm mane? sakt hati kan? ni baru la x adil. kan? paling kuat pun kalo nak cuti sgt, bukak la farmasi sndiri, klinik sndiri. time tu ko nak tutup setahun pun xpe.

menyampah dgn org2 yg mcm ni. kalo xde rase nak wat kerja ni, tukar kerja lain je la.

Hope

Sejak kebelakangan ni, rasa semakin kuat nak tolong orang2 yg memerlukan ni, cthnya mcm anak2 yatim, dan org2 miskin.. saye sndiri slalu google mcm mane nak join jadi sukarelawan utk tolong mereka, tapi, xjumpa pun mane2 yg ade link utk buat mcm tu. saye sendiri under Young Mercy Malaysia, tp, xde program pun.. last time ade la, ktorang pegi sekolah rendah bagi kaunseling dan motivasi... tp saye nak wat lebih drpd tu..

saye slalu baca psal org2 yg buka rumah anak2 yatim ni.. sebenarnye, saye sendiri, teringin nak ambil sorang anak angkat, kalo bleh, baby lagi la, utk saye jaga smpai la die besar... tp xtau nak cari kat mane.. tunggulah, sampai saye dh keje nnt, ade pendapatan tetap, saye nak ambil sorang baby, if kembar pun ok jugak.. :)

saye ade bgtau my bf pasal ni, and die pun sokong hasrat saye ni.. insya-Allah, harap2 die pun boleh sama2 dgn saye. saye teringin nak bgtau classmates saye, mintak kitorang satu claz pegi buat sukarelawan kat rumah anak2 yatim...tp saye rase xde org yg nak join saye.. kenape? saye dh kenal dorang 4thn kot... tau2 je sape yg nak, sape yg xnak...

teringin nak wat volunteer mcm my fren, qistina. die pegi kat afrika.. dari dulu lg mmg saye nk wat mcm tu. bile dh nmpak kawan sendiri wat, saye lagi la nk wat volunteer ni...

tp tu la... xtaw nk pegi ke mane utk join volunteer ni. Young Mercy pon senyap je....

me: I am lonely. I feel no one is there.
people: I am here. I always there if u need someone to talk to.
reality: Nobody's there. Nobody's there to listen to u. Nobody's there to comfort u. U on ur own.

that's the reality. No one is there when i need the most. People can promise, but will they be there 24 hours for me? I know God will always there, hear me.. listening to me. But, i need someone that can advise me, can respond to my questions, that able to comfort me. I am depress. and guess what? i am alone. nobody next to me. i'm on my own. anything i do, i'm on my own. don't question about what i did. coz u don't know what i've been thru.

keliru

aku rase saye dah x percaya lagi...
ape yg aku gambarkan dulu, dan yg saye percaya dulu, hakikatnye skarang bukan lagi...
ianya suci dan bersih, semua org tau dan semua org agung2kannye..
tapi kenape skarang sume org berlagak baik sgt?
kerana jika kite berpegang kuat, kite dapat kuasa? betul, kan?
kuasa utk tundukkan berjuta2 org..
kau bleh dpt harta, pangkat dan nama.. itu yg kau julang, kan?
aku tau aku x sebaik mane, tapi aku cuba perbaiki diri.
aku tau aku x se'baik' kau.. tp kau amat pasti yg amalan kau akan diterima? 100% pasti?
kau kutuk die, kalo kau berada di tempat die satu hari nnt, ape yg kau akan lakukan?
wat macam die? or lebih teruk lagi?
kau x kena lagi, bleh la berlagak baik, kan?
kau rase kau btol2 faham ia?
ilmu sudah cukup di dada?
satu hari nnt kau atau saudara mara sakit, kau tau la langit tinggi ke rendah,
melutut kau minta utk selamatkan.
kerana ape?
kerana kau x kan sembuh sendiri mcm magic.. ape yg ade ialah pertolongan sementara drpd manusia yg akan cuba utk tolong kau, tp semuanya bergantung pada takdir.
jangan la buat jahat sesama manusia..
kite x taw ble kite akan minta tolong kat die..
kite x taw ape terjadi nanti, kan? mane tau ntah2 kau yg sesat dlu..

aku sgt sedih.. org pandang hina je..
aku teringin sgt nak dpt duit byk supaya dpt pergi tempat lain yg x pernah wujudnye org2 mcm nie.
kerana aku tau, mesti ade satu tempat yg ade jawapan kepada soalan2 yg aku xtau jawapannye, dan aku sangat pasti kau pun x tau.

the hibiscus, PD

I saw this hotel in a pamplet at Lexis hotel. I really want to go to this hotel, PLEASE!! Swimming pool inside the room of course, and the shape of the hotel is according to the national flower, the hibiscus.





Never been here, but wish to spend my holidays here in the future. :)

New year at Lexis hotel, PD

When my mum said she want to go to PD, my sister and i have no feelings at all. For me, its just PD. I always went to PD for holidays, because it's near. The hotel, hmmmmmmmmm... the beach, hmmmmmmmmm... So, u can guess that i'm not excited to spend my holidays there. But when i reached at the hotel, OMG!!! I feel so happy and very excited. I always love d concept of swimming pool inside the room. Finally i can experienced one.

















The good thing is, we got this room for FREE. Muahahahahaha becoz my mum's friend unable to go, then he gv this room to us. We're very lucky. Got some things to do here, but we dun have enough time as we only stayed for 2 days and 1 night only. most of d times, my sis and i were swimming and playing ball..

I don't knw how to describe this hotel, but for me, this is a 5 stars hotel. I love it very much. the staffs were so friendly and kind, also we really enjoyed staying here. will recommed to my friends and family, also will indeed come again in the future. :)

movie updates

Ombak rindu
In my opinion, movie ni biase je, mcm cite Nur Kasih n filem2/drama2 melayu biase. xde ape yg brlainan pun dgn movie ni. balik2 datin yg xnak anak lelaki die kawen dgn pompuan yg xsama taraf dgn kluarga die, lelaki yg berpoya2, si isteri yg tabah, last2 happy ending jgk. but, saye sgt suke lagu2 dlm movie ni. sweet aje.. tgk cite ni sbb maya karin, bukan sbb aaron aziz ye. dh 2 kali tgk, tp saye x tau part mane yg org dok nanges tu.. hurm...~

overall, bleh la kasi 4 stars.. if only movie ni ade kelainan sedikit brbanding filem yg lain, mesti lagi best. tp terpulang la pada cita rasa masing2 kan? :)

Cars 2
Basically, Cars 2 ni lebih kurang je mcm yg 1st. kalo buhsan sgt tu, layankan aje cite nie.. at least leh la gelak2 and rehatkan minda..
 
so, 4 stars for Cars 2 :)