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Mission Impossible 4
Sape yg minat and ikut movie ni dari part 1 mmg senang faham la jalan critenye. aku plak baru start tgk..hehe mule2 mmg lambat nak faham, tp lame2 ok la. first2 jln crite agak slow, tp sekejap je. pastu, sgt2 best! sgt suke sbb die wat kat Dubai... :) saye mmg teringin sgt nak gi Dubai~ movie ni best la, klakar, n ade byk gadget yg menarik. hehe




Tom cruise sgt HOT!!!


First time nmpak dress hijau ni, mmg FALL IN LOVE btol.. cantik ok, sgt2 cantik :D


Anil kapoor sgt funny kat dlm movie ni. mmg cute and gelak xhenti2. :) still remeber his movie few years ago, sgt2 sweet...

overall, 5 stars from me for MI:4. :)

Petaling street warriors
Movie ni pasal keturunan diraja di China yg hilangkan diri, dan smpai ke Tanah Melayu (kan?) x ingat sgt, sbb tgk movie ni few weeks ago, dgn my bf, his cousin and our classmates. crite ni die pasal husband n wife yg jual mee, and wife die ni hebat kungfu. husband die ni, one day pegi judi, then kawan die jadikan die penjamin utk pinjam duit. tp dorang kalah judi, so, si husband ni kene la byr hutang2 tu. then suddenly ceti tu dtg rumah die n cari ape2 brg yg berharga kat rumah tu n tbe2 terjumpa cop diraja. last2 baru la tau yg husband tu keturunan diraja n wife die slalu protect die. part last mmg agak pelik, sbb patutnye husband die mati, tp suddenly die hidup balik n pandai kungfu. lol




namewee kali ni just berlakon saje, die x arahkan movie ni..


actually prempuan baju merah tu kan, mcm knal.. tp x ingat die dlm movie or drama ape..


dis guy pun klakar.. maharaja yg comel, ade rambut sikit je kat depan tu.. haha

movie ni ok la, xde la teruk sgt pun. just sit down, n enjoy je movie ni. but, some of terms mmg xfaham la, coz chinese je yg faham... but my bf slalu translate n explain balik, so faham! :) hehe

3 and half stars for u :)

In time
Mule2 tgk crite ni mmg xfaham. ape maksud 'time' yg ade kat tangan die tu, n sape yg control 'time' n etc.. lae2 tgk baru la faham. so, for those yg x faham, 'time' tu ialah jangka hayat yg die bleh hidup. lagi byk time die ade kat tgn die tu, lagi lame la die hidup. yg bestnye, x tua pun.. sume muda2 je.. hehe and 'time' tu bleh dicuri and diberikan kepada sesiapa shj, and usually org kaya mmg ade byk 'time', org miskin ade sikit aje 'time'. 'time' ni pun bleh bwk gamble, kirenye mmg xde duit la dlm movie ni. if nak byr ape2 bil or nal beli ape2, sumenye gune 'time'.


ade justin timberlake... lame xnmpak die..


she's beautiful...





hmm..xnak la tulis byk2 pasal movie ni.. kene tgk sendiri baru faham.. movie ni sgt sedih mase first part.. then mase die revenge tu, mmg best.. so, i gv 5 stars. :)

Twilight saga: Breaking down
sgt2 lame x tgk twilight n mmg x follow pun movie ni.. tp kali ni, rase nak tgk sbb bella n edward kawen, then bella pregnant. so, secara ringkasnye, bella pregnant but anak dlm kandungan die ni buat die jadi sgt2 tenat mase pregnant n die boleh mati. sume org suruh die gugurkan anak tu, tp die refuse. so, last2 die mmg mati, tp edward tukar die jd vampire. but, mmg last2 tu org ingat die mati la, sbb die lgsg xsedarkan diri. but dun worry, kalo bella xde, xde la twilight kan? haha!







honeymoon asek main chess aje.. boring nye honeymoon.. lol -___-"



tgk crite ni dgn my bf, tp die xde prasaan lgsg. cis! romantic n sweet, ok? hehe overall, bagi twilight ni... 4  stars. :)

memories

tbe2 mlm ni rse tringin nak balik mase zaman skola dlu... haish.. ye la, xlame lg dh nak masuk alam pekerjaan pulak, n pastu, biase la, kene bina family sndiri, pastu kerja, kerja,kerja... :( dlu, mse cikgu2 bgtau, zaman skola ni la zaman plg best, aku kate dorang tipu. ye la, aku mmg xsuke zaman skola dlu, sbb mase tu aku kecik lg, kene wat keje skola la, kene ikut je ape ckp mak ayah. even mase dpn ni pun, mostly dorng yg tentukan.. kalo ikutkan, diri ni ade cita2 lain.. pastu, ape yg cikgu bgtau, sume terima je.. xpnah nak soal pun, xpnah nak bantah pun..

skang, lg beberapa bulan je nak abes study. tbe2 td ade satu perasaan kuat utk tgk balik gambar2 dlu.. RINDULAH!!! tp kan, in my opinion, rasenye zaman university ngan mase kat skola asrama penuh dlu yg plg best. yg paling x best mase kat matrik, agaknye sbb matrik tu kat hutan mane tah.. -jahat- :P

post kali ni nak imbau balik zaman university, mase year 1-now. dr mule2 nak pilih university smpai la dh nak grad ni.. mak ayah ade harapan tinggi, nak suruh jadi doktor, tp mgkin takdir lebih kpd farmasi, so, kene amek farmasi la, walaupun mase tu ayah x happy sgt, sbb die nak aku jd doktor. so, pegi la interview sini sane utk dptkan tempat di univeristy swasta, sbb ipta dapat yg x best. actually aku bleh je nak amek doktor, tp sbbkan pointer matrik tu x tinggi sgt, so, xdpt la biasiswa.. medic mmg mahal, ok.. so, ayah kata x mampu kalo nak bayar sndiri. last time dpt offer kat royal college of medicine perak. tp of coz la x pegi kan... Farmasi pun ok ape, lebih kurang macam doktor jgk, cuma kami lebih 'bersih' -> only deals dgn ubat2 shj. mule2 dpt offer study kat IMU, tapi ayah mcm x suke, so dpt plak offer kat university skang ni.. :) ok la, dpt biasiswa lagi.. :)

so, mase 1st year, mmg xknal sape2... ade kawan2 dr skolah asrama penuh dulu, tp dorang amek medic. oh ye, nape x amek medic kat U skang ni? sbb mase interview dlu, doktor2 tu sume kate aku lebih kpd farmasi, based on cara aku jawab, essay n results. so, mmg takdir dah farmasi. huhuhu :) mase orientasi dan proses nak daftar tu sume mmg berjalan lancar la.. xde masalah pun. so, mula2 knal dgn my housemates la, since dorang pun xde kawan2 jgk. haha so, most of d times, mmg dgn my housemates, even until now. :)

oh ye, semester 1 tu, blom knal lagi dgn my bf skang ni, even ktorang satu claz. satu claz ktorang ade 33 org je.. 9 org lelaki n the rest sume pompuan.. tp kan, aku ingat lg mase tu kat dlm claz, mase awal2 sememester, lecturer suke tanye soalan ni, "sape yg drpd foundation university ni?" so, budak2 foundation pun sume angkat tangan la. siyes, aku rase nyampah gle.. mcm la bgus sgt.. hahaha jahatnye aku mase tu.. :P then satu row duduk dlm claz mase tu was my bf. tp mase tu still xde rase ape2, coz aku mase tu still ade bf (dr matrik).

bleh kate, mmg xknal sgt budak2 dlm claz tu... by time to time, just alert je la name dorang, tego2 sket.. n mcm tu je la.. ktorang pun byk wat aktiviti same2, so, lame2 mmg dah knal. and i still remember d first time i knw his name, during d chemistry claz. but still, xde perasaan pun time tu. soon, after dah breakup dgn my bf yg kat matrik tu, aku mmg gle sedih la. but later, knal pulak dgn my abg angkat, yg juga my senior kat fakulti farmasi ni. die sgt2 HENSEM, ok. mase semester 1 aku mmg byk crush. minat kat die nie la, minat kat die tu pulak.. even minat kat lecturer. yg mane hensem2 sume aku minat. yg aku agak proud dgn diri ni kan, aku ade effort nak knal dgn dorang, sumenye aku wat sendiri. especially my abg angkat ni la. ktorang pun slow2 rapat, then smpai skang pun rapat. aku ske ckp die hensem.. hehe

after christmas 2008 tu, aku mula la knal dgn my bf now.. die yg mulakan semuanye. (suke bile lelaki yg make move in relationship. :) ) die yg add aku kat ym, then ktorang chat hari2.. ble2 ade mase free  je mmg chat. kalo exam week tu, kdg2 dr pagi smpai mlm. kdg2 ble stay up, ktorang akan chat same2 d whole night. die mmg baik la, each time aku on9, mmg die yg tego aku dlu, n kirenye die la yg wat sumenye.. mmg nmpak effort die nk lebih kenal dgn aku. soon, die amek my hp number frm our clazmate jgk, xtaw sape. haha lagi la ktorang rapat, sbb die bleh sms aku ble2 mase je kot..

so sweet sbenarnye kisah cinta ktorang... mcm hannah ckp, our love story ni mcm drama korea. haha tp both of us (my bf n i) agree yg ktorang ni mcm sepet. lol -_______-" dlm byk2 org, die la yg plg faham aku, dan satu2nye org yg xpnah complaint ble dgn aku. ye la, aku ni panas baran, asek nk menang je n etc... and dlm byk2 aku couple kan, my bf now yg paling sabar n paling sayang kat aku, even kitorang different race. susah nak dpt org mcm ni, seriously. so, if korang dah dpt sum1 yg sesuai dgn korang, yg always there dgn korang ups n downs, jgn la lepaskan couple korang tu. cuba pertahankn selama yg boleh.

year 2 mmg year yg agak mencabar bg aku. xnak la ingat balik ape yg jadi. xnak jugak ingat kat orang psycho tu. so, overall, year 2 xde ape2 sgt... oh ye, year 2 ni la result aku plg gempak skali.. sbelum aku dpt illness mase year 3. Year 3 pun mencabar gak, sbb aku dpt major depression, spj year 3 mmg obvious la, aku x happy sgt, x gelak gile2 mcm dlu, asek bad mood aje, result pun sgt teruk, pointer jatuh.. and the person yg selamatkan aku was my bf. die yg bawak aku gi jumpa doktor, amek ubat n buat rawatan.. n now, dah sihat :)

year 4 ni dh mula dgn semangat baru, even byk benda yg tertinggal mase year 2 and year 3 dlu, kene la kejar balik, dgn memory yg x sebrp kuat ni.. tp at least, xde la give up mase year 2 and year 3 dlu, byg kan, lagi 15 minit nak masuk exam hall, aku bleh give up mcm tu aje, n sume yg aku baca hilang, n xdpt recall sgt. sedey la jgk. aku tawakal je time tu, result nak kuar mcm mane pun, redha je la.. tp skang dah berbeza sgt. aku cuba smpai habis... xde lg give up mcm dlu. :) so, dah nak final semester lagi satu minggu lebey ni, nak kene wat semangat baru. saye bakal jadi ahli farmasi tak lama lagi. :)

i wonder

i wonder... if u're willing to runaway with me, n leave averything behind, just to be with me?

i wonder...if u're willing to always be there to help me stands up again?

i wonder...if u're willing to love me if one day i'm no longer beautiful or useless to u?

i wonder...if i'm no longer by ur side, will u remember me and wish that i'm the one who's next to u?

i wonder...if i need to go to a place, faraway from here, will u follow me or will u wait for me?

i wonder...if everyone is against me, will u stand by my side, and believe me?

i wonder...if everyone left me, will u be there, hug me and wash away my tears?

i wonder...if it's worth trying and waiting...

mix feelings...

i don't know whether i must stay or go?

i don't know, whether i'm ready to stand alone.

i just need my own space. i just need u. u always there for me. i wonder its ur willingness or u just sympathy to me. it's may sound crazy and 'lame', but, for now, i just feel that, if i fail in this relationship, i don't want to be in relationship anymore. thinking of just adopting a child, and just go on with life. yes, for now, i'm giving up. sorry, i just can't trust malay man. my past...makes me afraid. this is just my feelings for now. don't know what happen in future.

tutup tirai 21..

kurang 24jan dr skang, saye akan masuk 22thn.. :)
so, imbas balik spj tahun ni... ermmm.... well,.. mcm2 jgk la yg jadi kat saye...
yg paling top skali, saye gi dpt kan treatment...
so, bleh kate, mmg berkesan la treatment tu...
saye pun bertambah sihat, and dpt rase yg saye smakin positif..
mmg xsalah gi treatment tu.. tgk je la saye skang, makin happy n positif..
dah xde give up lagi b4 nak masuk exam hall...
dah xde nanges2 lagi...
ade la jgk nanges... tp xde la tiap2 hari mcm dulu..
dah xde gaduh2 lg dgn die...
n tahun ni bleh dikatakan kejayaan utk x dengar org ngumpat...
serius! mmg dah lame xdgr... kdg2 je dgr.. tu pun kalo dorang yg dtg bgtau...
lol..
tp saye still xde rase nak jadi aktif cam dlu...
rase2 nak start drawing balik, n masuk class pun ade, tp still x ready nak wat...
rase nak main sports pun ade, tp still x rase nak wat...
xpe.. bleh improve lagi... :)
exam ari tu? emmm... ok la... xtau la leh jawab ke x.. haha.. sbb x yakin sgt... tp saye dah cuba yg terbaik dan saye akan trus cuba lagi.
rase mcm saye dah bazirkan satu tahun... ntah la... mgkin ade sebab knape saye jd mcm tu kot..
mgkin sbb dah lame simpan perasaan geram, sakit hati, x adil, menyampah....
so, ble saye ckp kat diri sendiri, knape sume tu msti saye ambil kesah sgt?
bukannye penting pon... bukannye akan ubah dunia pon...
so, saye amik kputusan utk x amek peduli lagi, dan teruskan hidup ni...
cume saye harap, saye x toleh belakang lagi, dan perlahan2 mula lepaskan masa lalu...

cam pelik je ari ni... ye... mgkin sbb x cukup tido... haha
ok, cukup la..
saye harap esok saye akan mulakan satu perjalanan baru, dgn positif dan Happy!
so, Happy birthday to me.. :)

happy :D

I'm happy now... I have a big smile on my face. :D

outing with friends n bf :)

last thursday all of us, (my bf, my housemates and my classmates) went to B. lalang to play kites. we had lots of fun at the beach, and they were playing kites. i'm not intesrested to play, actually and i just talking and laughed as they compete each other on who's kite will not fell on the ground. haha..  we just finished our final exam and we decided to go for outing to release stress after exam. Actually it was my housemates' idea. i just said ok, bcoz there were few times i turned them down when they asked me out. i felt sorry for them as i used to hang out a lot with them during 1st year and 2nd year.

we laughed, played kites, talking and we're having so much fun. until they decided to had seafood for dinner. well, i'm not a big fan of seafood but my bf asked to to join, and he really2 want me to join them. actually i'm quite tired and sleepy as i don't have enough sleep for the past 3 weeks due to exam weeks and study week.but then, i thought, a dinner won't be so bad, then i said ok, and asked them to find the best seafood restaurant there. hahahaha as it is my bf's hometown, so he told them which of the restaurant is the best. The workers quite shocked as there were actually a big number of us, and they set up a long table for us. my bf and some of my friends went to order the food, while some of us including me, just sat at the table and talking.

suddenly, out of no where, my roomate, came out with a huge birthday cake, and all of us sang the birthday song. i'm not shocked as i thougt d cake was for ws, as her birthday also in december. then finally my roomates brought the cake in front of me, and they all wished me happy birthday. ok, shocking, seriously, as it was an advanced birthday celebration. so sweet, they tried to hide it from me, and my bf also never told me anything about it. the funny part was, i also sang the birthday song and eventually sang ws's name. hahaha she laughed real hard and said they went to celebrate last time but i was busy doing my research and last minutes study for exam.

so happy they palnned a birthday celebration for me. so sweet.. :) i always love my housemates and my bf, as they were people who really close to me in college.  my roomates, they understand me better, and really care of me. thank u so much, everyone. :)

Oh yea.. can't wait for our holidays next year in Indonesia (class trip- but only half of the classmates are going) and Sabah (my housemates- 7 people, ws's bf, my bf and 3 of our classmates; some of our classmates also planning to join but not yet confirm). Its going to be lots of fun hang around with my friends and bf. :)

next event- going to Pd (-___-") with my mum and sis. Actually in my opinion, Pd is boring, and the beach is dirty, not like last time... we suggest to mum to go to different places, but she refused as pd is very near to our house, and easy for her to come back home. lol... so, i guess will be celebrating new year in pd.. yes, i celebrate new year by watching tv.hahahaha i don't like party or whatsoever, ok? not a big problem, and i like it, as every year, since i was small, my family celebrates new year.

another upcoming event is my bf's birthday as well as my roomates' birthday in January. oh yea, also hanis's birthday.. i already got few plans for my bf's birthday, but i have none for my friends. i think will discuss with my housemates about it.

this is another story. i don't know, somehow, i don't like the those two 'crows'. i think that they are very rude to some people in the class and they are very good in pretending to be nice. i think some of us know about this, especially her ex-bestfriend. but we're professionals, and we don't want to raise the matter, as it seems to me it is sort of childish. but its hurt, they hurt me, and i don't feel like want to be nice to them anymore.

well, like my bf always said, just pretend they don't exist, and they are black, and we cannot see them.  (crows). well, what goes around comes around. now u will be at the top, and everything is doing fine for u and u will think that u're right and made the best decision. But, u wait until one fine day when u fall down and hurt urself and the the only thing u will think of is ur family- the one u left for ur disgusting hairy bf. (i know i'm bad, but i'm really angry rite now.will ignored later). like her ex-best friend said, when u fall down i will be the one who will laugh real hard.

mood: Shopping!! :D

 

this is one of my favourite choice.. thinking want to buy or x..

love it :)

can i wear this for dinner? hmmmm

i love black dress :) :) :)

wow... i love it!!!!

:)

this is soooooo cute!!

for once in my life, i would like to wear this. hehe

i wantttttttttttttttttttttttt

Rase nk shopping dress utk annual faculty dinner la.......... tp next year...... lambat lg....... :(

tp still xde idea nak yg mcm mane...

First year: Black short dress

2nd year: Black + gold short dress

3rd year: Purple long dress

Final year: i'm thinking of wearing a long white dress... but still thinking....



 

oh yea... still exam week now... lg 2 paper...

x sabar nk abes n shopping... tp sbenarye cam xde masa. coz nak kene hantar final research paper 1 week after exam.. mcm2 nak kene edit...

talked to my lecturer juz nw.. he said, i should do whatever that makes me happy. he actually gv opinion for me to dance. i said, " i cannot dance. i dont know how to dance. lol -___-" " then he said, "u wont be 22years old forever. when u gets old, u wont be able to dance and enjoy anymore. For once, try dancing.. or anything u never thought u would do. and anything that makes u happy, with those people u feel comfortable with."

noted. thank u. :)