i'm trying

i'm trying hard.
i just close my eyes of things that i don't want tosee.
i just pretend that i'm alright.
i am alright.
am i?
...
ok,..ok, personally, i wish u will be more understanding.
i can still recall ur words.
or, maybe u're pretending as well.
why can't we be like others?
...

:(
i  wish that i can wait  for u for the rest of my life..
u're lucky, that i love u this way.
but, am i also lucky like u?