me: I am lonely. I feel no one is there.
people: I am here. I always there if u need someone to talk to.
reality: Nobody's there. Nobody's there to listen to u. Nobody's there to comfort u. U on ur own.

that's the reality. No one is there when i need the most. People can promise, but will they be there 24 hours for me? I know God will always there, hear me.. listening to me. But, i need someone that can advise me, can respond to my questions, that able to comfort me. I am depress. and guess what? i am alone. nobody next to me. i'm on my own. anything i do, i'm on my own. don't question about what i did. coz u don't know what i've been thru.

keliru

aku rase saye dah x percaya lagi...
ape yg aku gambarkan dulu, dan yg saye percaya dulu, hakikatnye skarang bukan lagi...
ianya suci dan bersih, semua org tau dan semua org agung2kannye..
tapi kenape skarang sume org berlagak baik sgt?
kerana jika kite berpegang kuat, kite dapat kuasa? betul, kan?
kuasa utk tundukkan berjuta2 org..
kau bleh dpt harta, pangkat dan nama.. itu yg kau julang, kan?
aku tau aku x sebaik mane, tapi aku cuba perbaiki diri.
aku tau aku x se'baik' kau.. tp kau amat pasti yg amalan kau akan diterima? 100% pasti?
kau kutuk die, kalo kau berada di tempat die satu hari nnt, ape yg kau akan lakukan?
wat macam die? or lebih teruk lagi?
kau x kena lagi, bleh la berlagak baik, kan?
kau rase kau btol2 faham ia?
ilmu sudah cukup di dada?
satu hari nnt kau atau saudara mara sakit, kau tau la langit tinggi ke rendah,
melutut kau minta utk selamatkan.
kerana ape?
kerana kau x kan sembuh sendiri mcm magic.. ape yg ade ialah pertolongan sementara drpd manusia yg akan cuba utk tolong kau, tp semuanya bergantung pada takdir.
jangan la buat jahat sesama manusia..
kite x taw ble kite akan minta tolong kat die..
kite x taw ape terjadi nanti, kan? mane tau ntah2 kau yg sesat dlu..

aku sgt sedih.. org pandang hina je..
aku teringin sgt nak dpt duit byk supaya dpt pergi tempat lain yg x pernah wujudnye org2 mcm nie.
kerana aku tau, mesti ade satu tempat yg ade jawapan kepada soalan2 yg aku xtau jawapannye, dan aku sangat pasti kau pun x tau.

the hibiscus, PD

I saw this hotel in a pamplet at Lexis hotel. I really want to go to this hotel, PLEASE!! Swimming pool inside the room of course, and the shape of the hotel is according to the national flower, the hibiscus.





Never been here, but wish to spend my holidays here in the future. :)

New year at Lexis hotel, PD

When my mum said she want to go to PD, my sister and i have no feelings at all. For me, its just PD. I always went to PD for holidays, because it's near. The hotel, hmmmmmmmmm... the beach, hmmmmmmmmm... So, u can guess that i'm not excited to spend my holidays there. But when i reached at the hotel, OMG!!! I feel so happy and very excited. I always love d concept of swimming pool inside the room. Finally i can experienced one.

















The good thing is, we got this room for FREE. Muahahahahaha becoz my mum's friend unable to go, then he gv this room to us. We're very lucky. Got some things to do here, but we dun have enough time as we only stayed for 2 days and 1 night only. most of d times, my sis and i were swimming and playing ball..

I don't knw how to describe this hotel, but for me, this is a 5 stars hotel. I love it very much. the staffs were so friendly and kind, also we really enjoyed staying here. will recommed to my friends and family, also will indeed come again in the future. :)

movie updates

Ombak rindu
In my opinion, movie ni biase je, mcm cite Nur Kasih n filem2/drama2 melayu biase. xde ape yg brlainan pun dgn movie ni. balik2 datin yg xnak anak lelaki die kawen dgn pompuan yg xsama taraf dgn kluarga die, lelaki yg berpoya2, si isteri yg tabah, last2 happy ending jgk. but, saye sgt suke lagu2 dlm movie ni. sweet aje.. tgk cite ni sbb maya karin, bukan sbb aaron aziz ye. dh 2 kali tgk, tp saye x tau part mane yg org dok nanges tu.. hurm...~

overall, bleh la kasi 4 stars.. if only movie ni ade kelainan sedikit brbanding filem yg lain, mesti lagi best. tp terpulang la pada cita rasa masing2 kan? :)

Cars 2
Basically, Cars 2 ni lebih kurang je mcm yg 1st. kalo buhsan sgt tu, layankan aje cite nie.. at least leh la gelak2 and rehatkan minda..
 
so, 4 stars for Cars 2 :)

updates

Mission Impossible 4
Sape yg minat and ikut movie ni dari part 1 mmg senang faham la jalan critenye. aku plak baru start tgk..hehe mule2 mmg lambat nak faham, tp lame2 ok la. first2 jln crite agak slow, tp sekejap je. pastu, sgt2 best! sgt suke sbb die wat kat Dubai... :) saye mmg teringin sgt nak gi Dubai~ movie ni best la, klakar, n ade byk gadget yg menarik. hehe




Tom cruise sgt HOT!!!


First time nmpak dress hijau ni, mmg FALL IN LOVE btol.. cantik ok, sgt2 cantik :D


Anil kapoor sgt funny kat dlm movie ni. mmg cute and gelak xhenti2. :) still remeber his movie few years ago, sgt2 sweet...

overall, 5 stars from me for MI:4. :)

Petaling street warriors
Movie ni pasal keturunan diraja di China yg hilangkan diri, dan smpai ke Tanah Melayu (kan?) x ingat sgt, sbb tgk movie ni few weeks ago, dgn my bf, his cousin and our classmates. crite ni die pasal husband n wife yg jual mee, and wife die ni hebat kungfu. husband die ni, one day pegi judi, then kawan die jadikan die penjamin utk pinjam duit. tp dorang kalah judi, so, si husband ni kene la byr hutang2 tu. then suddenly ceti tu dtg rumah die n cari ape2 brg yg berharga kat rumah tu n tbe2 terjumpa cop diraja. last2 baru la tau yg husband tu keturunan diraja n wife die slalu protect die. part last mmg agak pelik, sbb patutnye husband die mati, tp suddenly die hidup balik n pandai kungfu. lol




namewee kali ni just berlakon saje, die x arahkan movie ni..


actually prempuan baju merah tu kan, mcm knal.. tp x ingat die dlm movie or drama ape..


dis guy pun klakar.. maharaja yg comel, ade rambut sikit je kat depan tu.. haha

movie ni ok la, xde la teruk sgt pun. just sit down, n enjoy je movie ni. but, some of terms mmg xfaham la, coz chinese je yg faham... but my bf slalu translate n explain balik, so faham! :) hehe

3 and half stars for u :)

In time
Mule2 tgk crite ni mmg xfaham. ape maksud 'time' yg ade kat tangan die tu, n sape yg control 'time' n etc.. lae2 tgk baru la faham. so, for those yg x faham, 'time' tu ialah jangka hayat yg die bleh hidup. lagi byk time die ade kat tgn die tu, lagi lame la die hidup. yg bestnye, x tua pun.. sume muda2 je.. hehe and 'time' tu bleh dicuri and diberikan kepada sesiapa shj, and usually org kaya mmg ade byk 'time', org miskin ade sikit aje 'time'. 'time' ni pun bleh bwk gamble, kirenye mmg xde duit la dlm movie ni. if nak byr ape2 bil or nal beli ape2, sumenye gune 'time'.


ade justin timberlake... lame xnmpak die..


she's beautiful...





hmm..xnak la tulis byk2 pasal movie ni.. kene tgk sendiri baru faham.. movie ni sgt sedih mase first part.. then mase die revenge tu, mmg best.. so, i gv 5 stars. :)

Twilight saga: Breaking down
sgt2 lame x tgk twilight n mmg x follow pun movie ni.. tp kali ni, rase nak tgk sbb bella n edward kawen, then bella pregnant. so, secara ringkasnye, bella pregnant but anak dlm kandungan die ni buat die jadi sgt2 tenat mase pregnant n die boleh mati. sume org suruh die gugurkan anak tu, tp die refuse. so, last2 die mmg mati, tp edward tukar die jd vampire. but, mmg last2 tu org ingat die mati la, sbb die lgsg xsedarkan diri. but dun worry, kalo bella xde, xde la twilight kan? haha!







honeymoon asek main chess aje.. boring nye honeymoon.. lol -___-"



tgk crite ni dgn my bf, tp die xde prasaan lgsg. cis! romantic n sweet, ok? hehe overall, bagi twilight ni... 4  stars. :)

memories

tbe2 mlm ni rse tringin nak balik mase zaman skola dlu... haish.. ye la, xlame lg dh nak masuk alam pekerjaan pulak, n pastu, biase la, kene bina family sndiri, pastu kerja, kerja,kerja... :( dlu, mse cikgu2 bgtau, zaman skola ni la zaman plg best, aku kate dorang tipu. ye la, aku mmg xsuke zaman skola dlu, sbb mase tu aku kecik lg, kene wat keje skola la, kene ikut je ape ckp mak ayah. even mase dpn ni pun, mostly dorng yg tentukan.. kalo ikutkan, diri ni ade cita2 lain.. pastu, ape yg cikgu bgtau, sume terima je.. xpnah nak soal pun, xpnah nak bantah pun..

skang, lg beberapa bulan je nak abes study. tbe2 td ade satu perasaan kuat utk tgk balik gambar2 dlu.. RINDULAH!!! tp kan, in my opinion, rasenye zaman university ngan mase kat skola asrama penuh dlu yg plg best. yg paling x best mase kat matrik, agaknye sbb matrik tu kat hutan mane tah.. -jahat- :P

post kali ni nak imbau balik zaman university, mase year 1-now. dr mule2 nak pilih university smpai la dh nak grad ni.. mak ayah ade harapan tinggi, nak suruh jadi doktor, tp mgkin takdir lebih kpd farmasi, so, kene amek farmasi la, walaupun mase tu ayah x happy sgt, sbb die nak aku jd doktor. so, pegi la interview sini sane utk dptkan tempat di univeristy swasta, sbb ipta dapat yg x best. actually aku bleh je nak amek doktor, tp sbbkan pointer matrik tu x tinggi sgt, so, xdpt la biasiswa.. medic mmg mahal, ok.. so, ayah kata x mampu kalo nak bayar sndiri. last time dpt offer kat royal college of medicine perak. tp of coz la x pegi kan... Farmasi pun ok ape, lebih kurang macam doktor jgk, cuma kami lebih 'bersih' -> only deals dgn ubat2 shj. mule2 dpt offer study kat IMU, tapi ayah mcm x suke, so dpt plak offer kat university skang ni.. :) ok la, dpt biasiswa lagi.. :)

so, mase 1st year, mmg xknal sape2... ade kawan2 dr skolah asrama penuh dulu, tp dorang amek medic. oh ye, nape x amek medic kat U skang ni? sbb mase interview dlu, doktor2 tu sume kate aku lebih kpd farmasi, based on cara aku jawab, essay n results. so, mmg takdir dah farmasi. huhuhu :) mase orientasi dan proses nak daftar tu sume mmg berjalan lancar la.. xde masalah pun. so, mula2 knal dgn my housemates la, since dorang pun xde kawan2 jgk. haha so, most of d times, mmg dgn my housemates, even until now. :)

oh ye, semester 1 tu, blom knal lagi dgn my bf skang ni, even ktorang satu claz. satu claz ktorang ade 33 org je.. 9 org lelaki n the rest sume pompuan.. tp kan, aku ingat lg mase tu kat dlm claz, mase awal2 sememester, lecturer suke tanye soalan ni, "sape yg drpd foundation university ni?" so, budak2 foundation pun sume angkat tangan la. siyes, aku rase nyampah gle.. mcm la bgus sgt.. hahaha jahatnye aku mase tu.. :P then satu row duduk dlm claz mase tu was my bf. tp mase tu still xde rase ape2, coz aku mase tu still ade bf (dr matrik).

bleh kate, mmg xknal sgt budak2 dlm claz tu... by time to time, just alert je la name dorang, tego2 sket.. n mcm tu je la.. ktorang pun byk wat aktiviti same2, so, lame2 mmg dah knal. and i still remember d first time i knw his name, during d chemistry claz. but still, xde perasaan pun time tu. soon, after dah breakup dgn my bf yg kat matrik tu, aku mmg gle sedih la. but later, knal pulak dgn my abg angkat, yg juga my senior kat fakulti farmasi ni. die sgt2 HENSEM, ok. mase semester 1 aku mmg byk crush. minat kat die nie la, minat kat die tu pulak.. even minat kat lecturer. yg mane hensem2 sume aku minat. yg aku agak proud dgn diri ni kan, aku ade effort nak knal dgn dorang, sumenye aku wat sendiri. especially my abg angkat ni la. ktorang pun slow2 rapat, then smpai skang pun rapat. aku ske ckp die hensem.. hehe

after christmas 2008 tu, aku mula la knal dgn my bf now.. die yg mulakan semuanye. (suke bile lelaki yg make move in relationship. :) ) die yg add aku kat ym, then ktorang chat hari2.. ble2 ade mase free  je mmg chat. kalo exam week tu, kdg2 dr pagi smpai mlm. kdg2 ble stay up, ktorang akan chat same2 d whole night. die mmg baik la, each time aku on9, mmg die yg tego aku dlu, n kirenye die la yg wat sumenye.. mmg nmpak effort die nk lebih kenal dgn aku. soon, die amek my hp number frm our clazmate jgk, xtaw sape. haha lagi la ktorang rapat, sbb die bleh sms aku ble2 mase je kot..

so sweet sbenarnye kisah cinta ktorang... mcm hannah ckp, our love story ni mcm drama korea. haha tp both of us (my bf n i) agree yg ktorang ni mcm sepet. lol -_______-" dlm byk2 org, die la yg plg faham aku, dan satu2nye org yg xpnah complaint ble dgn aku. ye la, aku ni panas baran, asek nk menang je n etc... and dlm byk2 aku couple kan, my bf now yg paling sabar n paling sayang kat aku, even kitorang different race. susah nak dpt org mcm ni, seriously. so, if korang dah dpt sum1 yg sesuai dgn korang, yg always there dgn korang ups n downs, jgn la lepaskan couple korang tu. cuba pertahankn selama yg boleh.

year 2 mmg year yg agak mencabar bg aku. xnak la ingat balik ape yg jadi. xnak jugak ingat kat orang psycho tu. so, overall, year 2 xde ape2 sgt... oh ye, year 2 ni la result aku plg gempak skali.. sbelum aku dpt illness mase year 3. Year 3 pun mencabar gak, sbb aku dpt major depression, spj year 3 mmg obvious la, aku x happy sgt, x gelak gile2 mcm dlu, asek bad mood aje, result pun sgt teruk, pointer jatuh.. and the person yg selamatkan aku was my bf. die yg bawak aku gi jumpa doktor, amek ubat n buat rawatan.. n now, dah sihat :)

year 4 ni dh mula dgn semangat baru, even byk benda yg tertinggal mase year 2 and year 3 dlu, kene la kejar balik, dgn memory yg x sebrp kuat ni.. tp at least, xde la give up mase year 2 and year 3 dlu, byg kan, lagi 15 minit nak masuk exam hall, aku bleh give up mcm tu aje, n sume yg aku baca hilang, n xdpt recall sgt. sedey la jgk. aku tawakal je time tu, result nak kuar mcm mane pun, redha je la.. tp skang dah berbeza sgt. aku cuba smpai habis... xde lg give up mcm dlu. :) so, dah nak final semester lagi satu minggu lebey ni, nak kene wat semangat baru. saye bakal jadi ahli farmasi tak lama lagi. :)