outing with friends n bf :)

last thursday all of us, (my bf, my housemates and my classmates) went to B. lalang to play kites. we had lots of fun at the beach, and they were playing kites. i'm not intesrested to play, actually and i just talking and laughed as they compete each other on who's kite will not fell on the ground. haha..  we just finished our final exam and we decided to go for outing to release stress after exam. Actually it was my housemates' idea. i just said ok, bcoz there were few times i turned them down when they asked me out. i felt sorry for them as i used to hang out a lot with them during 1st year and 2nd year.

we laughed, played kites, talking and we're having so much fun. until they decided to had seafood for dinner. well, i'm not a big fan of seafood but my bf asked to to join, and he really2 want me to join them. actually i'm quite tired and sleepy as i don't have enough sleep for the past 3 weeks due to exam weeks and study week.but then, i thought, a dinner won't be so bad, then i said ok, and asked them to find the best seafood restaurant there. hahahaha as it is my bf's hometown, so he told them which of the restaurant is the best. The workers quite shocked as there were actually a big number of us, and they set up a long table for us. my bf and some of my friends went to order the food, while some of us including me, just sat at the table and talking.

suddenly, out of no where, my roomate, came out with a huge birthday cake, and all of us sang the birthday song. i'm not shocked as i thougt d cake was for ws, as her birthday also in december. then finally my roomates brought the cake in front of me, and they all wished me happy birthday. ok, shocking, seriously, as it was an advanced birthday celebration. so sweet, they tried to hide it from me, and my bf also never told me anything about it. the funny part was, i also sang the birthday song and eventually sang ws's name. hahaha she laughed real hard and said they went to celebrate last time but i was busy doing my research and last minutes study for exam.

so happy they palnned a birthday celebration for me. so sweet.. :) i always love my housemates and my bf, as they were people who really close to me in college.  my roomates, they understand me better, and really care of me. thank u so much, everyone. :)

Oh yea.. can't wait for our holidays next year in Indonesia (class trip- but only half of the classmates are going) and Sabah (my housemates- 7 people, ws's bf, my bf and 3 of our classmates; some of our classmates also planning to join but not yet confirm). Its going to be lots of fun hang around with my friends and bf. :)

next event- going to Pd (-___-") with my mum and sis. Actually in my opinion, Pd is boring, and the beach is dirty, not like last time... we suggest to mum to go to different places, but she refused as pd is very near to our house, and easy for her to come back home. lol... so, i guess will be celebrating new year in pd.. yes, i celebrate new year by watching tv.hahahaha i don't like party or whatsoever, ok? not a big problem, and i like it, as every year, since i was small, my family celebrates new year.

another upcoming event is my bf's birthday as well as my roomates' birthday in January. oh yea, also hanis's birthday.. i already got few plans for my bf's birthday, but i have none for my friends. i think will discuss with my housemates about it.

this is another story. i don't know, somehow, i don't like the those two 'crows'. i think that they are very rude to some people in the class and they are very good in pretending to be nice. i think some of us know about this, especially her ex-bestfriend. but we're professionals, and we don't want to raise the matter, as it seems to me it is sort of childish. but its hurt, they hurt me, and i don't feel like want to be nice to them anymore.

well, like my bf always said, just pretend they don't exist, and they are black, and we cannot see them.  (crows). well, what goes around comes around. now u will be at the top, and everything is doing fine for u and u will think that u're right and made the best decision. But, u wait until one fine day when u fall down and hurt urself and the the only thing u will think of is ur family- the one u left for ur disgusting hairy bf. (i know i'm bad, but i'm really angry rite now.will ignored later). like her ex-best friend said, when u fall down i will be the one who will laugh real hard.

mood: Shopping!! :D

 

this is one of my favourite choice.. thinking want to buy or x..

love it :)

can i wear this for dinner? hmmmm

i love black dress :) :) :)

wow... i love it!!!!

:)

this is soooooo cute!!

for once in my life, i would like to wear this. hehe

i wantttttttttttttttttttttttt

Rase nk shopping dress utk annual faculty dinner la.......... tp next year...... lambat lg....... :(

tp still xde idea nak yg mcm mane...

First year: Black short dress

2nd year: Black + gold short dress

3rd year: Purple long dress

Final year: i'm thinking of wearing a long white dress... but still thinking....



 

oh yea... still exam week now... lg 2 paper...

x sabar nk abes n shopping... tp sbenarye cam xde masa. coz nak kene hantar final research paper 1 week after exam.. mcm2 nak kene edit...

talked to my lecturer juz nw.. he said, i should do whatever that makes me happy. he actually gv opinion for me to dance. i said, " i cannot dance. i dont know how to dance. lol -___-" " then he said, "u wont be 22years old forever. when u gets old, u wont be able to dance and enjoy anymore. For once, try dancing.. or anything u never thought u would do. and anything that makes u happy, with those people u feel comfortable with."

noted. thank u. :)

hmmmm....

Hope i am stronger than before.

I dun wanna think to much starting from now.

I am letting go of my past.

:)

thank u, prof. :)

Kadang2 mmg susah jd perempuan ni... Sebenarnye, aku pon xtau nape aku rase jeles, menyampah, tak suke...etc..etc... and yea, aku mmg agree ape fana ckp, perempuan ni mmg susah, mcm die rase.. perempuan vs perempuan lagi la... kadang2 jeles sbb tgk perempuan lain ade baju baru, kasut/ beg mahal... ye... ye... aku pon mcm tu jgk kadang2... ble pikir2 balik, asal la aku nak jeles, kan? kalo bg peluang pun, blom tentu aku nak benda yg same.. so, mmg betol la, perempuan ni mmg ade byk nafsu, berbanding lelaki..

tp kan, aku mmg x suke la perasaan yg mcm ni.. perasaan jeles2 ni... kalo perempuan lain, x kisah la, coz diri sendiri kan.. kalo boleh buang perasaan ni, aku mmg campak jauh2.. slalu kalo aku rase jeles, aku msti pikir positif balik.. mostly try utk buang perasaan ni...

susahnye jadi perempuan ni... mood berubah2... -_________-"

just smile :)

Busy sgt2 few weeks ni.. bayangkan,research sume nak kene complete n hantar kat lecturer, at d same time ade byk presentations, and kene gi hospital clerk case, jumpe patient, then kat kolej plak kene jumpe juniors, reflection yg asek kene ubah tarikh je... minggu ni, hari2 kene ujan.. mmg sesema n sakit kepala... kdg2 ble dh letih tu, tido smpai x leh nk bgun. terpaksa la set 5 alarm to make sure bangun utk wat keje...

"terbaca" or sengaje baca satu blog ni.. xtaw la nape suke sgt bukak blog die.. mybe i'm still afraid if she still has the same feelings like before. i just want to ensure that she totally let go of him and find someone else. sometimes tertanye2 kt diri sndiri.. aku  xpcaya si dia ke? x la.. aku percaya.. aku x kisah pun die nk wat pe, mmg aku dh x control die lg. coz d best way for us, xnak gaduh, .. so mmg xde control2 lg... but die pun dh main pandai jaga hati ni... if ape2 he will ensure yg aku x rase kecik ati.. aku tau die takut kalo aku kecik ati.. coz die mmg xtaw nak wat pe..

but, antara semua, die mmg yg terbaik. even aku ni byk kekurangan, and aku confirm sgt kalo dgn org lain, msti dh break (based from d past). tp dgn die, die sabar je, and he understands my situation. kadang2 rase malu dgn die. coz aku marah lebih2, tp die diam je, and biar aku cook down sndiri, and then still come and approach me with smile. serius, mmg susah nk cari org mcm die. i'm very lucky. :)

some of my friends ade "problem" and die cite mase reflection. kdg2 sedih sgt bile kite dh kawan rapat dgn seseorang, then suddenly gaduh besar, then trus x kawan lgsg. smpai xleh tgk muka.. dorang mmg rapat sgt2, but dorang now dh mcm strangers. sedih plak bile tgk keadaan mcm tu..

hmm.. in terms of academic plak, now mmg aku rase aku ni mcm sedikit "slow". coz kdg2 mse lecturer ckp, asal la aku mcm blur sgt? bukannye aku xtau, aku juz xdpt catch ape yg die ckp... agaknye coz few weeks ni byk mkn mcD kot. ntah ape mimp aku ngidam mcD. hahaha chicken mcbite tersgt la sedap... :D so, kene wat research lagi and kene study utk final exam. next week is study week, so ade 1 week je nk revise sume... hope sempat..

so, this december, after final exam and research, aku nak enjoy~~~ muahahaha

tak suka

since everyone obsessed dgn tarikh 11.11.11 ni, smpai sume org nak kawen mase ni la, nak lahir anak mase ni la.. and sume tu perkara yg happy2 je.. :) tp ade la sesetengah org yg tak open-minded and maybe dorang jeles or whatever, siap mintak pandagan ustaz lagi psal benda ni. for me, biase la tu, tarikh tu cantik, senang nak ingat, mesti la sume org nak wat mase tu kan.. tp plan je la, some of people, plan je, tp x dpt buat pun.. what if ur birthday mase 11 november, and suddenly dis year kene plak 11.11.11, then ade org tu ckp tarikh tu bodoh, ape perasaan korang? dah la yg kate 'bodoh' tu, drpd mulut org yg beragama tinggi.. x sesuai langsung dgn gelaran tu.. kalo rase nak mencarut, tak payah une gelaran tu. x elok budak2 kecik tgk..

aku mmg agak kecik ati la, coz its my mum and dad wedding anniversary mase 11.11.11 ari tu. and ade org beragama tinggi tu kate tarikh tu and org yg celebrate tarikh tu bodoh. Bodoh ke aku nak celebrate anniversary mak bapak aku? suka hati la.. org2 yg berfikiran sempit mcm ni la wat negara tak maju. menyampah btol.

just admit

Bile kite susah, mesti kite sorang2 punye. Bile senang, tibe2 ade ramai orang sekeliling kite.